self prescribed, dose 3
It’s hard. It’s hard when you’re looking hard. Looking hard for something that you don’t even know what it is. It’s hard when you do that, while feeling the world around, the reality, all those around and their version of reality, all the rules and struggles; are … hollow. Fake, if you’d dare, and lacking that X factor. It’s harder when you judge yourself against the world.
All the extremes and contradictions in it. All the you see it now, you don’t see it now. All the take from one feed to the other. With all these things around to catch your attention.
And sometimes you just question, do I even matter. In billions of years, billions of people, extreme contradictions.. where do I fit? But it’s bliss when you see through the game. In life, there’s always the force that pushes you out of the confinement of being just you and the one that pushes you back . At some point, they will both be at their maximum. That is if you choose to seek the truth. If you care enough, love enough your time of residence on planet earth , to live, truly, for its meaning.
And then, suddenly, there is just nothing and all things. It’s like breathing a solar wall.
That’s when you realize the basic of this world is duality. And all experience rises from relativity. That’s when you realize, all you are trying to have, exists thanks to all you try to avoid.
That’s when you realize you have been rejecting half of existence. You have been downgrading your true self, your higher self, the universe in ecstatic dance that is showing up as you, a whole half of itself. So you’ve been denying it the choice.
Being creator by definition means cultivating choice. That’s when you realize, you’re either all in through it all.
That you’ve got nothing to gain or lose.
But there’s an opportunity to experience you. As this you. Unique. How no one ever can be the same as.
That’s when you feel the pain, of what it could have been, and the pain of what it could never become…
If you don’t start living now…!
That’s when you realize, the whole universe could be in your favor…
If, you accept it while; and choose the most exciting thought.
That’s when you realize all things you may be seeking, would just be side effects of finding the point of life and seeing through the game…
And that if you detach from your role on this planet and set feet in the shoes of a researcher, everything is just magnificent.
